{"id":14987,"date":"2014-08-12T21:28:34","date_gmt":"2014-08-13T02:28:34","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/lisadelay.com\/blog\/?p=14987"},"modified":"2014-08-12T21:32:08","modified_gmt":"2014-08-13T02:32:08","slug":"robin-williams-and-a-sad-end","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/lisadelay.com\/blog\/robin-williams-and-a-sad-end\/","title":{"rendered":"Robin Williams and a sad end"},"content":{"rendered":"

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I want to say something substantial about the life and death of Robin Williams, but I’m still reflecting on it. It’s too big.<\/p>\n

My brain is stumbling and stuttering on it all.<\/p>\n

Here’s a short<\/strong> something that’s been percolating today and I hope to find more thoughtful things to say later. It’s just sad and it’s hard to write when I’m sad.<\/em><\/p>\n

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A life cut short is sad and tragic. But, a life negated (taken. i.e. in a murder of one’s self) instead of lived is incomprehensible. Incomprehensible to a healthy mind.<\/strong><\/p>\n

The instinct to live is so primal that we avoid accidents and death reflexively. A deer crosses our path and we slam on the brakes without ever thinking that we are making\u00a0the choice to save our lives<\/em>. We duck when we hear loud sounds.<\/em><\/p>\n

But, too much thinking that can go badly.<\/p>\n

Depression is illness. One that kills. It grabs hard and won’t let go. Chronic depression is like a blindness that never really ends until you do. You can get through life, but you are impaired the whole time.<\/p>\n

Having struggled with it in fits and stages since early adolescence, I’m more devastated by the idea of depression beating Williams than I thought I’d be. I also compensated for it all by trying to be the funniest person in the room.<\/p>\n

Eventually, I looked for healing instead. Sometimes I feel like I’ve found it, at least in part.<\/p>\n

“[of Depression]\u00a0All it wants is to get you in a room alone and kill you.” –Harvey Fierstein<\/a><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p><\/blockquote>\n

May his soul be now at peace.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"

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